Poem - 'I wish I knew'

This is an older poem I had written when I went through a hard break up, which I am sure most people can relate to. Enjoy.

Times cant seem to ever slow down.
My heart is changing.
I'm face down on the ground.
My mind is re arranging.

When you are pushed so far
Then you realize
Who you truly are
I want to thank you
And for how much you tore me apart
I really do
Now I'm stronger and so is my heart.

I learned I do not need another person to make me happy
Don't worry
I'm not trying to be sappy.
I just wanted to say sorry.
For hating you as much as I do.
I'm sure you know this is true.
Seeing you around.
Not even saying a sound.
I know you noticed
How I look through you.

I won't fall back in your arms.
I won't do this to myself.
Don't be alarmed,
I still think about you now and then
I just need time to mend.

As the butterflies begin to die.
All the fire is put out.
I find out your love was a lie.
You don't care without a doubt.

The silver love you sold.
Was nothing compared to the gold.
I wish my sky didn't fall on me.
The clouds are all around my head.
This is where you lead
My heart,
from the start.
I wish I could have quit you.
I wish I knew you.